So Messed Up

When you're feeling so emotionally fucked up and you're only left with your ability express your emotions through gifs on Tumbler.

So that's basically it. 

Questions that I Cannot Answer

How can I begin to explain, how I really feel? How my love for them is different for yours? How I'll miss your smiles, your laughter, your downright quirkyness? How quickly you can brighten my day, even if I'd been walking under stormy clouds? How you can never fail to turn my frown upside down?

How can I tell you how much you mean to me, without having to actually admit that I may actually love you? 

Book Review: The Fifty Shades Trilogy

 

Fifty Shades Trilogy by E.L James

So, over the weekend, I decided to stop being such a hypocrite and finally see what the fuss is all about when it comes to this series. After all, I'm always telling my friends to read the book first before bashing it. 

With full knowledge that this pandemonium began just from a piece of Twilight fanfiction, I approached the book as so. And I must say, as a fanfic - this is probably the best I've read. As a book though...let's just say I believe Ms. James should have stayed in the world of fanfics. 

However, I do appreciate the fact that during the second and third books, Christian and Ana slowly become Christian and Ana - and not Edward and Bella. 

Its also pretty easy to see what the author had originally written parallel to Ms. Meyer's Twilight Saga. 

So, yeah, as a piece of fanfiction - prolly 5 over 5 stars. As a book - its not even getting more than 1 star.

One problem over the other

I can safely say that these past 2 days have been the worse of my life. As in.

Friday, I found out that my boss was planning something. - which was really, well, irritating to say the least, but I'm not in the position to complain. 

Saturday, by 11 in the freakin' morning, my dad and I were already at each other's throats. I mean, I get that he's all concerned and stuff, but he didn't have to insult me, to underestimate me. If he could only see how he's acting, then he wouldn't need help figuring out why I prefer working far away. Away from this God forsaken house.

Ugh. :|

Everyone else was freakin' happy for me, why couldn't he be like a normal person and just do the same? 😤

One Step

Today, I am fulfilling one of my dreams (asides from working for ABSCBN, because let's face it, that's not going to happen again) I applied for...wait for it...

KAWASAKI PHILIPPINES!!

*cue applause*

I know what ya'll are thinking "You're just doing this for *toot*!" And I'm here to say that, that assumption is completely false!! 

Having grown up in a family that loved automobiles, it would be fairly obvious that I would be surrounded by the Kawasaki name, so when Tita Teench told me about the vacant position, i just couldn't resist!

But sentimental value aside, I really want this job, I feel like it would be able to contribute to this company, while at the same time extensively learning what I can from this experience.

So, fingers crossed! Here's to hoping that I get this job!!